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Psalm 109

I praise You – I don’t remain quiet.
Wicked men speak against me – they speak lies, hatred, accusations.
I am a person of prayer. They repay me evil for good, hatred for friendship, betrayal for love.

Appoint an evil man for the evil man. Send him an accuser, find him guilty, let his prayers condemn him. His days will be few, someone else will take over leadership. His children will be fatherless and wandering beggars. A creditor will seize all he owns and strangers will enjoy the fruits of his labor. No one will have pity or mercy. The family name will be blotted out. God will never forgive him. He never thought of doing a kind deed, but hounded the poor to death. May the curse he put on others return to him.

Deal well with me. Deliver me.
I am poor, needy, wounded, fading away, scorned.
Help me, save me.
Men may curse, but God will bless.
I will extol God and praise Him for He stands at the right hand of the needy one and saves his life from those who condemn him.

I remember finding this psalm when I was recovering from my divorce. Every time I came across it, I would pray it with venom in my voice. But the more I allowed God to heal me and the more I forgave, the less venom and the more pity accompanied my prayer.

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Buster Brown’s Surgery

Buster Brown was a 57-pound English springer spaniel. I worked with him as a therapy dog. I didn’t realize that I would be his first patient.

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Janet Jean: Buster Brown had knee surgery yesterday. I brought home a pretty sore puppy. He was hurting – I could see it in his eyes. He was restless – it hurt so much, he just wandered around.

God: Janet Jean had divorce surgery. I brought home a pretty sore little girl. She’s hurting – I can see it in her heart. She’s restless – it hurts so much, she just wanders around.

Janet Jean: Buster Brown, I know it hurts. It hurts a whole lot. But you see, your knee was in pretty bad shape and the vet had to go in and take the knee apart and deepen the groove in the bone and tighten up the ligaments and then put everything back together again.

God: Janet Jean, I know it hurts. It hurts a whole lot. But you see, your life was in pretty bad shape and I had to go in and take your life apart and deepen the groove in your heart and tighten up your attitudes and ligaments of faith and then put everything back together again.

Janet Jean: Buster Brown, it hurts a whole lot right now. But it’s going to get better. Every day it will hurt a little less. Every day you’ll get stronger. And I have an antibiotic and a pain pill to help. Remember how you used to hobble along on three legs? When your knee heals, you’ll be able to run better than you did before. Honest. I’m sorry you’re hurting now, but it’s for the best – really it is.

God: Janet Jean, it hurts a whole lot right now. But it’s going to get better. Every day it will hurt a little less. Every day you’ll get stronger. And I have the blood of Jesus, My Word and the Holy Spirit to help. Remember how you used to hobble along depressed and unfulfilled? When your heart heals, you’ll be able to live and love better than you did before. Honest. I’m sorry you’re hurting now, but it’s for the best – really it is.

Janet Jean: I love you Buster Brown. I’ll be here for you. Please don’t be mad at me. I didn’t do it to hurt you or be mean. It’s for your own good. It’s what’s best. I’m sorry you’re hurting. I wish I could take it away.

God: I love you Janet Jean. I’m here for you. Don’t be mad at me. I didn’t allow this to punish you or be cruel. It’s for your own good. It’s what’s best. I’m sorry you’re hurting. I’m hurting too. Let Me take it away. That’s why my Son Jesus died for you.

Janet Jean: Dear Jesus,

I see the pain in Buster Brown’s limp, in his eyes. The physical pain You suffered was so great it killed You. Buster Brown didn’t have a choice. You did. You chose to suffer and die so that I could be forgiven and spend eternity in heaven with You.

I know the pain of rejection. Rejected by a husband whom I loved deeply. Rejected, ignored by people I thought were friends. How You must hurt every time one of us goes our own way, leaves you out, misses the still small voice, forgets to say thank you. My pain is nothing compared to Yours. The prayer of Jabez says, “that I may not cause pain”. Help me to stop causing You pain.

God: Janet Jean, what else can you learn from Buster Brown?

Janet Jean: Buster Brown is always glad to see me.

God: I am always glad to see you. Be glad to see Me.

Janet Jean: Buster Brown is always so expectant, so excited about everything.

God: I expect the best from and for you. Expect the best from Me. I am thrilled to be part of your life. Be excited about everything.

Janet Jean: Buster Brown always wags his tail, even in pain.

God: Be positive, Janet Jean.

Janet Jean: Buster Brown wants to cuddle, but can’t until he’s invited.

God: Cuddle me Janet Jean.

Janet Jean: Buster Brown wants to be with me 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

God: Here I am Janet Jean. Come, take my hand.

June, 2003